Well its your big cousin Claire's engagement party tonight she gave me a spray tan last night, you were probably laughing at me dancing about and screaming like a maddy! Your papa took Megan up to visit your grave this morning she was so happy to have went up. We all miss you loads your my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night. I got my fundraising pack in this morning so i will be sorting through it all tomorrow. I dont even feel like really going out tonight but I have to start doing things again instead of staying away from the rest of the world and hiding my feelings. One day I hope everything is taken away from that midwife and registrar to see how I feel everyday without you. Its cold outside, think we are supposed to be getting snow, ur uncle craig told me that and if it doesnt happen hes in big trouble haha. I hope your carrying your wee blanket about in heaven and snuggle into it at night when you go to bed, im sure gran Rose tucks you in the way i would. Well i suppose i better go now and organise your sisters, megan's going to a birthday party and caitli's tormenting her as usual. Love you loads my beautiful angel and will never ever forget the love you have brung into my life and the confidence and strongness you have left me with, Love you loads Mummy x x x