Today is a lovely fresh day outside. Your sisters are keeping me busy as usual and im trying to keep my mind busy as the reality has set in that you are no longer with us. 15 weeks tomorrow since u were sadly taken from me and 14 weeks since you were buried but don't worry justice will be done in your memory. Thats me started my fundraising ideas for sands im going to have tshirts printed for us in your memory and sell raffles, do sponsors and have a disco night. Im sorry i haven't been up to visit you recently if truth be known, i find it hard to walk away and dont feel as strong as I did before. I feel a bit lost without you not being here which is funny because i miss you so much but never really had you her with me. I miss the morning sickness, you kicking me in the ribs, feeling your toes through my skin,the heartburn but most of all i miss the good feeling I had when i knew you were growing inside me. One day we will meet again and I will know you straight away but until then I suppose you would want me to get on with life instead of feeling sorry for myself and neglecting my motherly role. My kids are my life and although you are no longer with me I know you are always around me. As your gran keeps tellimg me, as i move forward in life I take you with me and thats the way it will always be my wee star x love you loads Logan, my wee star in the sky shining brightly all around us x never far from my thoughts x