Another day without u that I wish things were different. Sometines I wonder why I have to live with all this pain and misery for the rest of my life, but then I remember I gave life to u when you were in my womb and remember that u were my wee person that I created and wouldnt change it for the world, just wish you could be here to be with us as a family but I will always have you in my heart. I hope I make you prud one day when i can go back to studying or doing something for myself but right now I have to focus on getting the justice only you deserve and when I get that I will try my best to change and become the person I was without hurting so much.Your sisters are doing well Caitlin is doing well at speech therapy and Megan is still a bit muddled over losing you but I know you are with her to always guide her in the right direction. I finally got my hospital appointment in so go for my scan on the 17th of february and hopefully get my operation afterwards on my shoulder. Still remember when it popped out when I was pregnant with you and your auntie Kylie, Gran and Pauline were first to come and help me. What a carry on we had when I was pregnant with you Logan with heartburn, sickness and ur feet always sticking into my ribs, falling down the stairs, dislocating my shoulder but I never regret the memories we have of falling you moving around and never will. I suppose in time it will get easier but be assured I will never forget you ever as you and your sisters and the best things I have ever done in my life. There are times I think I can't carry on and I have my bad days where I want to fight with the world but then I remember it won't change our circumstances and I remember that I want to make you proud not fall downhill into a trap which I may never be able to escape from. We as a family will make you proud at the charity night, it will be talked about for years of how spectacular it was and the memory of you will never be forgotten by any of your immediate family x Only me and you will always have our special bond of mummy and son and that will never be broken no matter what x Love you always Logan baby no matter where u are or who your with I know your with me everyday in my heart x x x