Happy Valentines Day to my boy. I haven't felt like celebrating today, just doesnt feel like I should be without you here. Next Thursday will be the day that i found out i was expecting you and a happy day whereas it won't be anymore :( I was at your grave yesterday, your papa had cleaned the stone and made it look lovely with the way he had arranged the flowers. I stood for a few minutes thinking of why it had to be you, and it seems selfish to say it shouldnt have been but thats my protectiveness of you. Derry was staying last night, I was sleeping before him and your sisters due to my lack of sleep the night before. Words can't explain how much i miss you and always will and just because I seem as though Im fine, im not really i miss you more than everyone realises, its night time wen I realise what I don't have. My theory test is eventually booked, going to try and pass my test this year and get it over and done with. Hope ur missing me loads and always remember when I look up into the sky at night and see the brightest star I know its you looking after me. Thank you for the strength and confidence you left me otherwise I dont know where I would be right now :( Love always to my wee precious man, hope your with me as I sleep and you hear every word and thought I have x x x